Disappointment

Today I decided to snoop around. And of course, that always leaves me disappointed....
And I don't understand how people can be so different, almost apart from themselves when with someone else. I don't understand. And if you are simply trying to hide somethings, there's no point in it. There is no point in it when you are serious about the other person. It doesn't make sense to me. And when I see the other side, it makes me not want to go on. Makes me want to just end it.